~ Sleepless Nights ~

Lately, Broken Wings have not been able to sleep well. When i tried, it will either be 2a.m. the earliest or 5a.m. the latest. I no longer know why i am like that. I just couldn't sleep well. Most of my sleep felt too REAL to be a dream.

Sometimes, I found myself "dreaming" in my sleep. It is scary.

I felt like I would never wake up again.

I had always been the best -LIAR-.

With the best mask that cover myself ALWAYS and FOREVER.

Thought that I could let people around me think that I was fine whole time,

but now, I realize that I was not that strong to pretend anymore.

It wasn't an act,

I was just too used to it.

Now, I am tired of everything around me,

where could I stop and Restart everything?

Will anyone know that "i had fallen"?

Will some other angel be there to 

~HOLD~ my hands?

       ~when i fall~

~HUG~ me?

       ~when i cry~

~CHEER~ me?

       ~when i need the most~

~ Like i used to be there for them ~

~Under my own mask, I'm the best shelter for everyone ~

~ Random ~

#short post again.

In just a few days, many incidents had been "cast" on me. There are so many, out of the "pool" of incidents had almost took my life away from me forever. Before this, I had never cared if I die because no one in this world had really cared much about my existence but looking at the worry face of my mum made me realize that my mum will be sad if I were gone that day.

On the 5th, i was driving 50 km/h through the whole bridge. That was due to my mum's poor time management. =_="
During that drive, we almost got crushed by a bus. I am not going into the details (still having trauma).

~ Re-patch ~

This might be my last post that is related to you. As I typed this, the only thing I know is that I wouldn't let "our" memories go but life goes on. So I have to learn to "re-patch" my heart as I know I wouldn't be getting back my heart that is still with you. Lastly, building another one might be the best.

Btw, broken wings has started to like a new song. I don't know if it is new towards others, but it is new to me and here, I will post the lyric because I find it nice.

PS: My apology for such a messy english.

~ Vanilla Twilight ~

By: Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.