~Return~

After years of abandoning my blog. Here I am again...

Typing nonsense, only to get sense to myself.

I might already be mad.

Maybe I am just numb to feelings.

People say Time heals. 

Maybe it is true.

What do people do to a person who do not want to be saved?

Are they going to forever suffer? 

I was told that I do not know how to let go.

Maybe that is a FACT too.

Maybe I just need time.

However, does time wait?

Two souls from two different world

To meet is a blessing

To be together is a joy

At the very least,

to know each other was enough.

I recently met someone I held dear to myself.

It felt like a light in my life.

I kept reaching out for it.

But it is a foreign light.

Different from what I am used to.

To reach it,

I almost lost in the void of space.

It is TIME to LET GO~

I shall learn even if I do not want to.

For time DOES NOT WAIT.

It is TIME to LIVE.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

~ Fake Mask ~

~ Days  into weeks turn into months ~
~ If lies could hide the pain ~

~ Then I shall go on being like that ~

~ Call me stupid or maybe even vapid ~

~ Why does lies could make me suffer alone? ~

~ I could always tell people around me that I am always fine ~

~ Yet I would cry when I am alone every night ~ 

~ It may look silly but it's the truth ~

~ Honestly,  I am really sick of faking my smiles ~

~ Just like someone would say ~

~ "It takes a smile to cover a million tears" ~

~ Yet it's what i know best ~

~ I know sometimes I may be confusing ~
      ~ I think I may like you ~
~ However, I know not everything
was suppose to come true ~

~ I guess in the end of the day~

~ giving up was the only way to escape without pain ~

~ because hiding will never ~

~ save me forever ~

~ Curry Puff To Chicken Pie To Fei Ma ~

Yesterday, after being glued on a chair for about 4 hours, I finally straighten my hair!! YAY~~

After that, I went to take some picture at a shop..."nearest to my house".

Something REALLY interesting happened there

a Curry Puff decided she is good enough to take photos for me....

I wish I could S-H-O-U-T at her... 

Then conversation goes like this :-

       Me: I want to take a pic... passport size pls...

       CP: Ok. Pls wait.

*I thought a "master" would come and take that shot*

~ waits... waits... ~

     CP: Ok pls sit down.

* I was like "WTH?"*

Just like that my sun turn into hell!

She didn't even say ready or anything.. just snap snap snap!

I don't even have time to get ready to smile!!!!!

Anyhow my RM12 flew away because of that!!!

And i WOULDN'T go to that shop EVER AGAIN!!!!

The service is SOOOO "Fu Fu" bad that the workers is not customer friendly, and there is hardly a proper info being given to the customer.

That's when I decided to go to another shop. Luckily this time I met a Chicken Pie.

This Chicken Pie really emits the AURA of confidence.

The service is good and cheaper than that "Bi" Curry Puff.

The service includes FREE photoshop touch up and face adjustment.

Happy with the service i went to eat my dinner 

at Fei Ma restaurant. I ate Char Hor Fun. It's not bad... 

just too ~ oily ~

the oily meal >_<

Take a closer look~~

Too bad I didn't shot a pic of the empty plate =p

# note: Curry puff and Chicken pie is actually 2 individuals that I gave nicknames... We don't want any fuzz here right?

~ Sleepless Nights ~

Lately, Broken Wings have not been able to sleep well. When i tried, it will either be 2a.m. the earliest or 5a.m. the latest. I no longer know why i am like that. I just couldn't sleep well. Most of my sleep felt too REAL to be a dream.

Sometimes, I found myself "dreaming" in my sleep. It is scary.

I felt like I would never wake up again.

I had always been the best -LIAR-.

With the best mask that cover myself ALWAYS and FOREVER.

Thought that I could let people around me think that I was fine whole time,

but now, I realize that I was not that strong to pretend anymore.

It wasn't an act,

I was just too used to it.

Now, I am tired of everything around me,

where could I stop and Restart everything?

Will anyone know that "i had fallen"?

Will some other angel be there to 

~HOLD~ my hands?

       ~when i fall~

~HUG~ me?

       ~when i cry~

~CHEER~ me?

       ~when i need the most~

~ Like i used to be there for them ~

~Under my own mask, I'm the best shelter for everyone ~

~ Random ~

#short post again.

In just a few days, many incidents had been "cast" on me. There are so many, out of the "pool" of incidents had almost took my life away from me forever. Before this, I had never cared if I die because no one in this world had really cared much about my existence but looking at the worry face of my mum made me realize that my mum will be sad if I were gone that day.

On the 5th, i was driving 50 km/h through the whole bridge. That was due to my mum's poor time management. =_="
During that drive, we almost got crushed by a bus. I am not going into the details (still having trauma).

~ Re-patch ~

This might be my last post that is related to you. As I typed this, the only thing I know is that I wouldn't let "our" memories go but life goes on. So I have to learn to "re-patch" my heart as I know I wouldn't be getting back my heart that is still with you. Lastly, building another one might be the best.

Btw, broken wings has started to like a new song. I don't know if it is new towards others, but it is new to me and here, I will post the lyric because I find it nice.

PS: My apology for such a messy english.

~ Vanilla Twilight ~

By: Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

~ Not Everything Is A Fairy Tale ~

31 Jan - 12.00A.M.

Smiles were taken off my face

I found myself hardly smiles now

If it had to end,

Why must it be this way?

Was it something that is written?

or Is it I am too stupid?

Maybe we shouldn't have met.

Our worlds are totally different.

Two different world

That shouldn't have met

Years ago

And shouldn't have, even now.

I guess cry may not be the word to describe me

I should not cry

I mean why must I?

"Face it" like you once said.

Now our world is 2 worlds apart again

But why must it be today?

I'm sorry.

Really sorry.

~ Life is unfair ~